I can't, I won't

Now I know I can handle this
I'll close my mouth and clench my fist
I've lived this day in a thousand ways
But there's a flaw to add to your list

Go on and squeeze a little more
Coz if I scream you'll just ignore me
But I've rehearsed this scene in a million dreams
You're getting closer to my core

I'm so damn frustrated
Losing breath and now I'm thinking
Gotta keep myself from breaking down
Someone get me out

Tears won't fall, my eyes won’t cry
Need to get me round this corner
I can't break down, I won't
Pride don't cave in, head don't fall off
While I'm open you can read me
I can't, I won't

Think I blocked it out for long enough
Think I got really good at playing rough now
I've been prepared and not really cared
But being brave is getting tough

You smile like the cat that’s got the cream
I'm vulnerable and I know you see me
There's so much I wanna say
But this aching heart makes me walk away

Someone get me out
Someone let me out

Think of it or Damn you ..

I really dunno why I want my own blog ? Since ppl do lottza stuff without reasons, here goes another one of the kind.

The real reason behing my blog ? - Thinking of it, there are quite a few

1. Tryout new things just to feel what it is like.
2. Peer Pressure - ppl around me have a blogspot, even when they don't have anything to write about. This is a chaotic condition. When everyone starts blogging, there wont be enough people to read all the blogs (I figure this is gonna happen in my case).
3. Damn.. I cannot find a third reason.

I can post my favortite music, movies, hobbies, etc. But who cares ? The one's who might be interested in what I post might be thousands of miles away. I might not get to meet them at all. I am not a journalist to write my views on something and sell it as news.

Politics, Poverty, War, Terrorism - These are some topics on my mind, but posting them online - does it make any difference ?

Forget me. Just think of why you started your blogspot ? Are you able to do something with it, let alone wastage of time to type ?

Or are you just like me, having enough time to waste wihout reasons ? If yes, then that makes millions of us similar.